no matter how much i try
life refuses to cross by
fate turns her head away
but my heart refuses to sway

i hate this word......optimism
its nothing but a delusion....
a veil to trap my self
in the bubble of my illusion..........

if you have , oh divine above
guts as me come down!
be the human, live as me.........
breathe that air i wish shouldn't be
be besides , i ll show you gloom
that has filled inside of me........
you ll pull up that mirror
be amazed at that frown
it ll be exactly the distance you fell down.........

then dear lord, i ll forgive you...........
for each stuff you have passed down
for i know...now.............
that you are stuck,
can't pull me out this rut
for it is you who made this up!

but beware,i ll be there!
and i need those answers bare........
but .............till then oh lord......
watch this soul, and how he fought!

staring at teh bright blue sky
saw a shadow coursing by
wings spread wide ,oh free bird
spare a glance,on this earth.....
feel my soul in chains,restrain
always had nothing to lose or gain
i implore,swoop down on me
teach me how to fly
shed the shackles of this life
aid my thought, be reborn
and my soul get airborne!

meena n me

stuck in the web of our own desires......
i was curious,she was furious....
we held our ground at an arms length.
waiting....
for either to act,or make amends.

our gazes fixed,mine were lost, hers on mine......
as if in trance, took a step closer
only to find her move away and whine...
disheartened,determined,she had to be mine!

it hissed and slipped,chased her long.....
could hear teh heart beat,she ,her own.......
she could sense my perspiration....
swaying wildly,cold exasperation..

i took my chance,held her strong....
it had been resisting my attempts so long......
finally meena was in my hands,
the eyes spewed fire,
the trembling desire,
to be set free........
i stared too long .........
my heart forlorn......
the grip gave way.....
for her to sway.......
to set her free......n end
the misery!

he veiled his face from his people so vile

there was no courage left to face their guile!

turned away to run disheveled ,disemboweled,

towards the sun , it might set him free

panting for air he didn't want to breathe!

had never cowered, had known no fear

but blades of fate had struck his faith

leached that thought , drained that dream

till he lost his most endearing possession

teh smile on the face had left,he'd fail that test

he had lost.........the moment of confession!

his eyes spewed wrath,saw his dream lay charred

foul mouthed rage ,turn after turn, page after page

he forced the heart to stop, shooed his soul away

with the glow of teh left over sun he waited

the mortal self on the sand he lay

for the earth to have the final say

the waves leapt forward in  gentle embrace

tufts of foam caressed his being, 

pulled him softly to the deep

a crimson glow was all he could see

stubborn as him teh soul came sobbing

teh glow had morphed to the wonderful dream

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the mind yet again beamed happy thought

wondering, perplexed........should he thank the GODS?

The heart was caught in ceaseless frenzy
The mind was pensive too
The soul fell back , on that unruly thought
Those memories of me and you

The happy moments of freedom divine
“That my life was really mine”
Head laid back in serious abandon
Regardless of stuff done undone

Tiny bubble of life friendship bound
Each moment , corner an adventure found
As breath of life passed each right hand
happiness? “is there anything more that life can?”

EVERY DAY OF THIS life of mine
THOSE TIMES MANAGE TO BREaCH
But on yet another 4 th day of another eighth month
The waves surge strong indeed
Its complicated !! between me and you
Dear afmc, I ll always remember you!!